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am i sad? happy? angry?

hayz.. even myself did’nt know what i feel..

its really confusing…

frustrating…

why ..

do u think 1 guy can love mee forever?

i think its not..

for me everything in this world is just a temporary..

whether i’d like it or not, it wont last forever…

im so sad everytime im thinking about “temporary”..

i dont wanna lose a friend, love one or etc..

do you think there’s a way to make there is no word like “temporary”?

i wish  someone can love for being who iam..

i can love him back whether i like him or not..

i know i can learn to love a person who loves me..

im always asking myself why im jealous to that girl?

i dont have a responsibility to stop him for his likings..

im always hoping that someday there’s a person who can understand my whole personalities..

because sometimes around my friends im happy, smiling, shy…

but they did’nt even knew that im crying, sad and frustrating..

RYT??

dare ga suki nano ka wakaranai yo…

anoko mo daisuki ano hito mo daisuki…

demo atashi no kareshi to au hi wa 1 kai dake nano… maigetsu ikkai dake atteru no… demo anoko wa atashi no koto wo sugoku daisuki nano…

demo atashi no mada suki na hito wa mainichi gakko de atteru no demo atashi no koto ga suki janai no…

anoko ga sta.mesa ni itsumo iru toki atashi wa mochiron samishigattemas…

friendster nimo y.m nimo communication ga arimasen…

keitai wa kowaretan des…

dakara atashi no mune ga zuki zuki itteru no…

demo gakki de ano hito wo miru to sugoku ureshii no…

dousuru no? T_T

kyou wa chotto kinchou suru hi deshita…

ranchi bureeku no toki, anoko ga macy to meg tachi to rouka de hanashiteru no..
soshite atashi wa arvin to janice no soba de suwatte mas…
sohite arvin ga itsumo ano ko no koto wo yonderu no… x_x

ato kurasu ruumu ni haitte doa no soko de suwatteimashita…
sohite atashi wa mado no soba ni ite armyne tachi no toko eh ikimashita…

atashi anoko ni nanimo shaberenakatta!
soto ni deta toki atashi wa ‘zannen!’ tte iimashita…

kaeri michi, janice to jllbee ni ikimashita…
ato mata gakko ni modotte ano ko wo sagashimashita…
sonokoro divine to aimashita…

divine ga deta toki ano ko mo demashita…

atashi wa hayaku aruite tookou ni ikou to shitara, ikinari divine ga anoko ni "neeh! aiko ga nanika iitai datte!"
soshite janice wa tada warattete ato atashi wa katamarimashita…

ato kyuuni atashi wa "uhm… genki deska?" tte iimashita..
ato anoko ga "un.. daijoubu dayo.." tte itte nanka waraisou na kao wo shimashita..

soshite divine ga "ai no omoide~" tte utai mashita..
chotto nanka ureshii kibun ga shimashita…

gakko owatte kara janice to jllbee ni ikimashita…
ato nanjikan matte mo anoko ga konai…
ichijikan tatta toki atashi ga totsuzen ni anoko to khim no koto wo hanashimashita…

chotto samishiku natta kedo, 30 pun tatta toki janice ga "mou ikou.. mada gakko ni iru kamo shirenai yo.."

ato watashi wa "un" tte iimashita…

gakko no geeto ni hairu toki totsuzen anoko to aimashita!!
mochiron bukatsu no tomodachi to issho des!
ato oyatsu wo tabeteimas!
mochiron kao ni chiizu ga mada arimas… ^^

atashi wo mita toki anoko wa jibun no hankachi de kuchi wo kakushite waratte imashita..
ato atashi ga "haroo.."
soshite anoko wa futatsu no matsuge wo agete nikkori to shimashita… ^-^

sohite anoko no tomodachi tachi wa "aiko~~" tte iimashita…

ato sore ga owatta toki mata janice to warai mashita…
ureshiku narimashita… ^-^